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[November the 1st] |
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Lost Boys: The Tribe playing on Kyle's DVD player in his bedroom...I could live in this bed... |
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My brother's girlfriend speaks in a way that is so...lovely. Granted, her English is broken or perhaps twisted in places. But that's to be expected. It's not her native tongue. I was looking at entries and I saw a comment where she asked me if Kyle was the second half to my whole. I gave Katalin some roundabout answer about how he's special to me and I love him and blah blah blah. But see what I mean? The second half to my whole. Just lovely. I'll have to ask him what he thinks about that terminology.
While Kyle's been away, I've spent a lot of time at his place. I've gone swimming in the pool. I've watched movies on his couch in my underwear. I've sat in the middle of his bed wearing one of his shirts and wondering what it'd be like if I lived here all the time. I don't ask Kyle if I can, because I don't feel it's fair for me to push myself on him like that. I joke that I'm gonna hypnotize him into realizing that he can't live without me, but I never joke about such things directly to him. If Kyle wants me to live with him all the time, Kyle will be like "hey, move in with me..." or he'll just move my stuff in from Mom and Dad's. I think the latter would stun me for a minute, but I'd probably just giggle and let it go.
Yesterday, I thought about the first time we met. When everyone was freaking out about this gorgeous singer that had come into Cicada. I remember being his waitress and thinking that he was hot, but there was no way that he'd ever be interested in some mousy little thing like me. Imagine my surprise when he asked for my number! I never imagined he'd call me, but he did. He invited me out for late night conversation. It was such a nice night, but I imagined when he walked me to my door that it would be the end of it. He is, after all, a famous musician. I liked him a lot, but what would such a guy want with me, you know? Then he showed up the next morning with breakfast! And even with a few tearful moments in between, he's never ceased to amaze me.
I miss Jordan a lot. Sometimes more than others, but it's weird to have my brother on the other side of the world. He's happy, and for that I'm extremely glad. It just seems...weird. But I know that Katalin is taking care of him. I like Katalin. The time that Kyle and I spent in Budapest with them was really nice and I was very glad to know that my brother is in good hands. Budapest is a nice place. I wouldn't mind going back someday. Of course, I kinda want to show Katalin around L.A. Sure, we're not as pretty as Budapest, but I know of a few places that are really lovely. At least to me. Maybe they're not lovely to everyone else. I don't know.
I was a goth pixie for Halloween. Wings and everything. I was attempting to tease my boyfriend from a distance and at the same time, annoy my parents greatly. It kinda worked. I got fired from candy-passing duties because of the length of my skirt. And I might have gotten the guy that tends to Kyle's pool fired. I, however, am not fired, no matter what Kyle may have said last night. Because I was cute and said I missed him and I want him to come home soon. Who knows? Maybe he and the goth pixie can hook up when he gets home. I'm gonna have to save this costume. I like the way it fits.
I guess that's the good thing about not being a famous-enough girlfriend to be plastered in the papers all the time. I can still wear whatever and do whatever. The only time I get any kind of media coverage is if I'm out with Kyle somewhere. I wonder if the non-famous wives of some celebrities ever feel like I do. A sense of relief and yet, at the same time, a little bit of jealousy. I don't want people to make a big deal if I go to the grocery store in my pajamas...but in a way, I kinda do. I don't know. I don't get it sometimes. And I don't have to. And that is just fine. All I ask is that Kyle not sleep with groupies and/or slutty celebrities and that he comes home safely to stalk me the way he does. :) I'm probably the strangest person in the world. It makes me happy to have my stalker.
( Private - Girls Only. )
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| 021. |
[September the 7th] |
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I want to go to the VMAs. My boyfriend's a singer. It's like a rite of passage! My mom called and told me that she's TIVO'ing it for me. I didn't have the heart to tell her that it's probably going to be on MTV for the next six weeks.
My time with Kyle is coming to a close. So far, we've spent a little time in London, which was fabulous. I was happy to get to sight-see, and to see my boyfriend in concert. Honestly, I felt like a celebrity, being taken to the airport and picked up at Heathrow with an entourage. Being taken to the concert and having some pretty damn fabulous seats. Getting to brush past the screaming fans to go backstage and see Kyle in his element. Truthfully, he put on the best show I've ever seen in my life. Some weird reporter asked me if any of Kyle's songs were about me. I told him "yeah...all of them." So if someone sees some weird entertainment news that all of Kyle's songs are about me, it's totally not true! In fact, I'm not certain that any of his songs are about me, 'cause as much as I like that song with 50 Cent...it's about porn. So, I'm going to ask him when we go to bed if he'll write a song about me.
We went to Budapest to see my brother and the girl he's been seeing, Katalin. We took the train, so it was an interesting trip. I loved it. I've never been out of the country before. I've only barely ever been out of California! So I was very impressed with getting to see such classic architecture and beautiful cityscapes and just the old world feel of some of the cities. I can see why Jordan wants to live here. I was glad to get to see my brother. It made me realize just how much I've missed him. I felt so relieved. I mean, I know that he's alive, but it's like I didn't entirely believe it until I saw him in person. I think Kyle finally tore me off my brother - I was hugging him so hard! We stayed in the same hotel - different rooms, of course! But I liked knowing that he was near. But I totally didn't want us sharing such close quarters. I mean, Kyle and I have been much more active since we got back together. I'm pretty sure Jordan doesn't want to hear his baby sister singing her boyfriend's praises in the middle of the night. :P
Anyway, so I got to meet Katalin. She's very nice. I like her. I told my brother so the night before we left Budapest. I'd kinda insisted on making dinner before we all went out and I pulled him aside and told him that I approved of Katalin and I liked her and he needs to bring her to Los Angeles with him next time he comes home so that I can take her window-shopping and I can show her Valentino's and Cicada, two of the places I'll always call home.
Budapest is pretty, but I think I want to live in Paris. After we said our goodbyes to Jordan and Katalin, Kyle and I headed to Paris. I love it! I told him I was going to runaway and get lost here so I could never ever leave the place and he'd just have to build a house there so we could always live there. He laughed at me, but he knows my idea is perfect. I could open a bakery there and we could have our happily ever after. He could still be famous and we could come back to the States for awards shows and stuff. I'm a genius. I know. He can write that into the song he's gonna write about me that he doesn't know he is just yet.
Speaking of, I think I'm going to bring that idea up to him now.
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